What sin cries to heaven? The very one that hides most secretly and most quietly within. What the adulter, murderers, and thieves do cries out already here on earth.
Kierkegaard

To be a mere observer is actually sin.
Kierkegaard

Well that's all

The conciousness of sin is the essential condition for understanding Christianity.~Kierkegaard~

Ok so the quote is somthing I was going to blog awhile ago but I didn't.

So I'm at home praying, reading www.ichilly.com, and thinking about a story.

There was this one time, when I was young. My family and I were out at the lake. I love the lake it was one of my favorite time. The lake in the summer swimming, fishing, watching the boats go by, cook outs, summer nights, family, oh those were fun. But this story is alittle different. I was out in the lake swimming, playing on my raft. Out past the bouey the boats are speeding by. I'm just having a goodtime. Then my uncle who thought it would be funny, decided to push me out on the raft pass the bouey. I'm scared and start begging him to take me back. He just laughs and swims away leaving me stranded. I start to freak out! I jump off my raft and I'm panicing and drowning. My father hears my screams and swims out to help me. He puts be back on my raft, but I'm still freaking and still think i'm drowning. So I jump back off the raft( I know, makes no sense) and I'm drowning again. This happens 3 more times. At this point my dad is losing strenght, paintence, and starting to drowned himself. So after the forth time he punches me knocks me out cold and puts me on the raft and takes me to shore. I didn't drowned good for me.

So while I'm thinking about this I realize that I still do this. This being I panic and keep jumping back into the water. Now this is figurtivly speaking. And most of the time I never show it. But God in his own way knocks me out and drags me to shore. He saves me! He keeps me from drowing, in so many things we(I) can start drowning. In this story I knew how to swim I just couldn't do it while I was panicing. As I've got older I don't freakout as much, but I still need God, each day more and more.

Well that's all
Zach

"No, to serve God's cause is to face examination. If someone wants to serve his cause, it is not God who loses his balance and sublimity; no, he fixes his attention upon this volunteer-observantly-and sees how he conducts himself, weather he has intergrity and resolve." - kierkegaard

Am I ready to truely let God examine me? Man, to try and hide things from God is just foolish. He sees all and knows all, so what am it doing not freely letting Him guide. Resolve is a word I have been thinking and feeling. There's that point where trying turns to resolve and the thoughts are less questioned and the action become consistent. We stop chewing and swallow the food God gives us. And we are strenghten in this resolve. I think about how I've chewed the food and then decide (like it was even given for me to choose) it isn't the right taste or the right food even, and I spit it out. I'm not talking about the crap(ideals, sin, pride, fear, I've eat and swallowed these many times)I've made and placed in my mouth, but the spiritual food Christ has prepared and given to me. He is the Father, He gives good gifts. So what are you chewing that God has given you to swallow? I ask myself this. It's interesting how God will show you in your day to day if you(I) would just listen. Well that's all I got.

Zach